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Avoiding eye contact, thoughts I keep hidden, they can't become free,
Blame will cover my frail heart; do you know what you see?
Afraid of the dark, monsters wait,
A loving action that bruises, expectations live as the bait,
Entering my room, my door I close,
A tilted chair, a familiar pose,
Mother works late, money to survive,
Father states, love, he will forever provide,
Having a shower, I avoid each drop, each reminder,
That pain stems from a mature provider,
The shake that will forever last,
Stems from a change of perception, a moment in the past,
A shadow sneaks to my bedroom door,
A smiling silhouette hiding from mans law,
My blanket is removed,
Words spoken then actions prove,
Fear and fascination causes the silence,
My face portrays confusion, is this love or violence?
Part of my body, I have always been told to hide,
My father removes my underwear, what he sees creates pride,
His hand causes an increased heart beat,
Touching my vagina, I'm overwhelmed by a growing heat,
His penis is hard, mixed feelings I fuse,
He says I will gain something if I'm willing to lose,
I have thoughts that constantly shout,
i open my mouth however, no words will come out,
Avoiding eye contact, thought I keep hidden, they can't become free,
I hold my silent doll, fifthteen hundred days ago my father first raped me.
Blame will cover my frail heart; do you know what you see?
Afraid of the dark, monsters wait,
A loving action that bruises, expectations live as the bait,
Entering my room, my door I close,
A tilted chair, a familiar pose,
Mother works late, money to survive,
Father states, love, he will forever provide,
Having a shower, I avoid each drop, each reminder,
That pain stems from a mature provider,
The shake that will forever last,
Stems from a change of perception, a moment in the past,
A shadow sneaks to my bedroom door,
A smiling silhouette hiding from mans law,
My blanket is removed,
Words spoken then actions prove,
Fear and fascination causes the silence,
My face portrays confusion, is this love or violence?
Part of my body, I have always been told to hide,
My father removes my underwear, what he sees creates pride,
His hand causes an increased heart beat,
Touching my vagina, I'm overwhelmed by a growing heat,
His penis is hard, mixed feelings I fuse,
He says I will gain something if I'm willing to lose,
I have thoughts that constantly shout,
i open my mouth however, no words will come out,
Avoiding eye contact, thought I keep hidden, they can't become free,
I hold my silent doll, fifthteen hundred days ago my father first raped me.
Literature
Mother
You told me to not swear, yet you would swear at me daily You told me to not lie, yet you would lie to me everyday You told me that you loved me, yet I was a burden to you daily. You told me that I needed to be perfect, but what was perfection in your eyes? You told me that I failed you, but you failed me all my life You told me that you would protect me, but I needed protection from you You told me that I wasn't allowed to cry, but you were the one that made me cry You told me that you would help me, but I was the one always helping you Everyday the words still haunt me, but each day you told me to move on Everyday I can vision your anger, but each day I pretended it never really happened Everyday I hear your voice, but each day I tell myself what you have told me Everyday I needed your protection, but each day I reminded myself that I had to do this alone Mom, I still cant forget the things you have said and done, but each day i grow stronger Mom, apologies wont change a damn
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Broken Children
We are God's broken children
He is cruel. He beats our heads in
And calls it love. No more. (I am due more than pain.)
I won't take His cruel kindness again.
I will find some new god more like me:
One beaten, broken, treated cruelly.
Blamed for his own pain and his disgrace,
Humble enough to be a god only in lowercase.
Literature
Nothing and Everything
I ain't got much for nobody,
I ain't got much of anything.
But I've got you, and that means a lot
Cos you're my everything.
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poem 15,00 0f 1,500 written 06/05/10
perception of a child that is being abused by a parent, this poem continues from another one I did, which was based on a conversation i had with a 15year old that was raped. as a child i was raped, these poems stem from me and the conversations i have had with other victims.
perception of a child that is being abused by a parent, this poem continues from another one I did, which was based on a conversation i had with a 15year old that was raped. as a child i was raped, these poems stem from me and the conversations i have had with other victims.
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Man, I'm so sorry. I don't know what that's like, but I hope your doing alright.