#1,830 signs of life

Thanks is my moment, the key to your mental vault,
Words of role models, I fought then joined your vault,
Standing still on my living home,
I was confident for I stood alone,
Evolution time would allow,
A contradicting statue, upfront I'm forced to bow,
To appreciate the importance of your life,
Too, the fear inside, temporarily silent with a knife,
Traffic jams and each raised voice,
Reminds u of your place, it's not my choice,
The unemployed shadow, twenty seven years old,
Normalised characteristics you only accept after you fold,
Reaching out your hand to find the hand if your son,
Once fully extended you remember you don't have one,
I under your pain for I'm forced to feel,
The distance between a psychologist and each labelled pill,
Grey hair under your smile, the surface,
CATS follow flashing lights,  why do you fight the needed service?
The collection is f gods you refuse to see,
Stands watching science fail me,
This is my moment, the key to your mental vault,
I'm your self harm scar thus my existence is not my fault.